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[kolkhozi]

My mother is dead.

At first I was going to just leave that post there but it doesn't feel like enough somehow. This isn't a pity plea or anything like that. It's just... I think I need to say it, to see it in writing, or it won't be real.

The worst part is, yeah, I'm crying, but I still find my thoughts drifting to the stupidest shit and it's like... do I really care enough? Or have I detached myself from reality too much?

She was a wonderful, smart, witty, kind, woman. She and I didn't always get along on everything but more often than not we could just talk and communicate and bond. I'd hear about people fighting with their parents and look at mom and just smile. She would listen to my stupid rants on anime and joke around with me about them and she helped teach me about things and she was my mom.

And now she's dead.

I keep expecting her to call me with "Hah! Just kidding!" but she won't be.

my mom is dead and i want to go home

Comments

[psi-yamaneko.livejournal.com]

...I'm so sorry. It sounds really hollow in writing but consider me hugging to near-death right now.

[dots.livejournal.com]

Oh, Aisu. I can't imagine how much you must be hurting right now ... I wish you the best. I wish I knew what else to say.

[sensitise.livejournal.com]

Oh my god. I am so sorry, Aisu.

[pwnmastersaurus.livejournal.com]

I hate not knowing what to say in situations like this, but- I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine. D:

[powercorrupts.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. There aren't any words that can help, but if you need someone to talk to, I'm Bad Haro on AIM.

[renegadecoffee.livejournal.com]

Oh Aisu! (HUGS SO HARD)

I'm here if you need or want anything. I am so sorry for your loss.

[demamas.livejournal.com]

Oh no no no Aisu

I am so sorry

I wish I could help

[ripedecay.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family. I also wish I knew what else I could say.

[katamanda.livejournal.com]

Oh God Aisu, I'm so sorry.

If there's anything that I can do... /hugs

[puella-nerdii.livejournal.com]

I know there are no words that can really make this better, but I am so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

[hastemarch.livejournal.com]

*snugs* Thoughts with you and your family, sweetie.

[case]

If you need to rant or talk to a stranger or something, I'm here ethgkjeh even if you don't really... know me ... etgkh

[kefanii.livejournal.com]

Nothing anybody can say, but words do add up a little, so here's me on the pile. I'm so fucking sorry, hon.

[eliminate.livejournal.com]

I've only talked to you a couple times, and I only know you from RPD, but if you ever need someone to just listen to you, or something, I'm here, too akl;ejklgeg I hope you have people to talk to, at any rate.

[databomb.livejournal.com]

Oh man. I'm so sorry, I really don't know what to say, but -- I'm sorry. This will probably sound kind of stupid, but I hope you'll be alright.

[ligtness.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.

This is superfluous, but just in case you forget the AIM conversation:

I'm always there for you.

[kecleon.livejournal.com]

I only know you via RPD, but... oh god, I can't even start to understand the pain this must be causing you. ._. I hope you'll be okay.

[optical-nerve.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry, sweetheart. My condolensces. I hope you'll be all right soon. She loved you and you'll have that with you always.

[gridlore.livejournal.com]

If you need anything from us, call. Aunt Kirsten is texting you as I write this.

[technobubblegum.livejournal.com]

I've been there.

[aircrash.livejournal.com]

oh my god aisu -

i'm so so sorry.

please, call me if you need to talk, or text me if you want.

take care of yourself.

i love you.

[leinyan.livejournal.com]

I also only know of you through rpd. I am so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling.

I hope you're gonna be okay.

[furious.livejournal.com]

sfdjgfs;klal;dfg :(

Aisu... *hugs* I know I'm like the worst person to ever talk about anything serious to but if you need someone to listen I'm dahngrest on AIM. ♥

[diplopod.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Aisu... I wish there was something I could say to make you feel even a little better. :|

I know we arn't really close or anything, but I'm here if you need someone to talk to, just like everyone else.

/hug

[massteria.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Aisu. I know we don't know each other well, but words can't describe how horrible I feel at this news. I'm so so sorry. Like everyone else, I wish I knew what to say. I've got the same AIM name as LJ, if you need anything at all. I was just thinking about you, wondering why you were so quiet, and then I read this. I'm sorry.