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[kolkhozi]

My mother is dead.

At first I was going to just leave that post there but it doesn't feel like enough somehow. This isn't a pity plea or anything like that. It's just... I think I need to say it, to see it in writing, or it won't be real.

The worst part is, yeah, I'm crying, but I still find my thoughts drifting to the stupidest shit and it's like... do I really care enough? Or have I detached myself from reality too much?

She was a wonderful, smart, witty, kind, woman. She and I didn't always get along on everything but more often than not we could just talk and communicate and bond. I'd hear about people fighting with their parents and look at mom and just smile. She would listen to my stupid rants on anime and joke around with me about them and she helped teach me about things and she was my mom.

And now she's dead.

I keep expecting her to call me with "Hah! Just kidding!" but she won't be.

my mom is dead and i want to go home

Comments

[psi-yamaneko.livejournal.com]

...I'm so sorry. It sounds really hollow in writing but consider me hugging to near-death right now.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

No right now even just text means a lot.

[dots.livejournal.com]

Oh, Aisu. I can't imagine how much you must be hurting right now ... I wish you the best. I wish I knew what else to say.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Hurts pretty fucking bad, yeah. Thank you for the thoughts - right now it's all I really need.

[sensitise.livejournal.com]

Oh my god. I am so sorry, Aisu.

[pwnmastersaurus.livejournal.com]

I hate not knowing what to say in situations like this, but- I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine. D:

[powercorrupts.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. There aren't any words that can help, but if you need someone to talk to, I'm Bad Haro on AIM.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

It's not your fault, but thank you so much anyways.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Knowing that you care is all I need from people, so don't worry about the right words.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the offer. I might take you up on it or not, I don't even know at this point what to do hahaha.

[renegadecoffee.livejournal.com]

Oh Aisu! (HUGS SO HARD)

I'm here if you need or want anything. I am so sorry for your loss.

[demamas.livejournal.com]

Oh no no no Aisu

I am so sorry

I wish I could help

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. *hugs tight*

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

knowing that you care means a lot

[ripedecay.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family. I also wish I knew what else I could say.

[katamanda.livejournal.com]

Oh God Aisu, I'm so sorry.

If there's anything that I can do... /hugs

[puella-nerdii.livejournal.com]

I know there are no words that can really make this better, but I am so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the thoughts.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Just knowing that you care means enough. /hugs

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you for trying, at least.

[hastemarch.livejournal.com]

*snugs* Thoughts with you and your family, sweetie.

[case]

If you need to rant or talk to a stranger or something, I'm here ethgkjeh even if you don't really... know me ... etgkh

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much.

[kefanii.livejournal.com]

Nothing anybody can say, but words do add up a little, so here's me on the pile. I'm so fucking sorry, hon.

[madelineusher.livejournal.com]

The offer helps a lot, even if we're not 100% the closest yet.