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[kolkhozi]

My mother is dead.

At first I was going to just leave that post there but it doesn't feel like enough somehow. This isn't a pity plea or anything like that. It's just... I think I need to say it, to see it in writing, or it won't be real.

The worst part is, yeah, I'm crying, but I still find my thoughts drifting to the stupidest shit and it's like... do I really care enough? Or have I detached myself from reality too much?

She was a wonderful, smart, witty, kind, woman. She and I didn't always get along on everything but more often than not we could just talk and communicate and bond. I'd hear about people fighting with their parents and look at mom and just smile. She would listen to my stupid rants on anime and joke around with me about them and she helped teach me about things and she was my mom.

And now she's dead.

I keep expecting her to call me with "Hah! Just kidding!" but she won't be.

my mom is dead and i want to go home

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[gridlore.livejournal.com]

If you need anything from us, call. Aunt Kirsten is texting you as I write this.

[kshandra]

What he said, hon. Don't even bother looking at the clock - I'm still out of work, so I'm up till at least 0100, usually closer to 0200. Call my cell and I'll talk to you about whatever. Hell, if you want me to, I'll come down for a couple of days.

You've got the digits, you've got the emails. Say the word; we're here.