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Aisu ([personal profile] kolkhozi) wrote2009-03-02 04:36 pm

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My mother is dead.

At first I was going to just leave that post there but it doesn't feel like enough somehow. This isn't a pity plea or anything like that. It's just... I think I need to say it, to see it in writing, or it won't be real.

The worst part is, yeah, I'm crying, but I still find my thoughts drifting to the stupidest shit and it's like... do I really care enough? Or have I detached myself from reality too much?

She was a wonderful, smart, witty, kind, woman. She and I didn't always get along on everything but more often than not we could just talk and communicate and bond. I'd hear about people fighting with their parents and look at mom and just smile. She would listen to my stupid rants on anime and joke around with me about them and she helped teach me about things and she was my mom.

And now she's dead.

I keep expecting her to call me with "Hah! Just kidding!" but she won't be.

my mom is dead and i want to go home

[identity profile] psi-yamaneko.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
...I'm so sorry. It sounds really hollow in writing but consider me hugging to near-death right now.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
No right now even just text means a lot.

[identity profile] dots.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Aisu. I can't imagine how much you must be hurting right now ... I wish you the best. I wish I knew what else to say.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
Hurts pretty fucking bad, yeah. Thank you for the thoughts - right now it's all I really need.

[identity profile] sensitise.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my god. I am so sorry, Aisu.

[identity profile] pwnmastersaurus.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
I hate not knowing what to say in situations like this, but- I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine. D:

[identity profile] powercorrupts.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. There aren't any words that can help, but if you need someone to talk to, I'm Bad Haro on AIM.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
It's not your fault, but thank you so much anyways.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
Knowing that you care is all I need from people, so don't worry about the right words.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you for the offer. I might take you up on it or not, I don't even know at this point what to do hahaha.

[identity profile] renegadecoffee.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
Oh Aisu! (HUGS SO HARD)

I'm here if you need or want anything. I am so sorry for your loss.

[identity profile] demamas.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
Oh no no no Aisu

I am so sorry

I wish I could help

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much. *hugs tight*

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
knowing that you care means a lot

[identity profile] ripedecay.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family. I also wish I knew what else I could say.

[identity profile] katamanda.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
Oh God Aisu, I'm so sorry.

If there's anything that I can do... /hugs

[identity profile] puella-nerdii.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
I know there are no words that can really make this better, but I am so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much for the thoughts.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
Just knowing that you care means enough. /hugs

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs* Thank you for trying, at least.

[identity profile] hastemarch.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
*snugs* Thoughts with you and your family, sweetie.
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[personal profile] case 2009-03-03 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
If you need to rant or talk to a stranger or something, I'm here ethgkjeh even if you don't really... know me ... etgkh

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much.

[identity profile] kefanii.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
Nothing anybody can say, but words do add up a little, so here's me on the pile. I'm so fucking sorry, hon.

[identity profile] madelineusher.livejournal.com 2009-03-03 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
The offer helps a lot, even if we're not 100% the closest yet.

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